That said, writing something I'm proud of and that I love is still difficult. And there are three things I'm working on making a habit. The first of these is believing in myself. If I sit down and think that all I can write is crap, then I give up and don't get anything accomplished. If I sit down and feel like I can write something that might be good, I get excited and just write. I can't think about what I'm writing, I have to just write and believe that if it's only okay this time, I can make it better as I go. I have to believe I can write something worth reading.
Another thing that helps me is letting myself write for fun. Even though choosing the right words and creating the right image is hard, I have fun coming up with the ideas and getting them on paper. If I let myself have fun with it, I get more pages completed and more involved in the story. If I stress out too much about word choice or whether I put in enough detail, I get far less written. I'm working on just writing, getting it all down on paper, and worrying about the details and the word choice when I'm through.
The last habit I've recently adopted has made a big difference in my confidence. I have too many pieces that I started and quit on because I didn't think they were good enough. My goal now is to finish whatever I start. Following this edict, I finished a novella last year that needs a lot of work, but I'm proud of it. It's the longest piece I've ever written; it's a complete story; and now I'm expanding it into a full-length novel. When that's done, I'll decide if I want to get rid of it or set it aside. When I finished the novella, for the first time, I began to maybe one day I will be able to write the novel that's in me.
Finding these habits has been a process, but each one has made a difference, each one changed how I think about my writing. Writing a novel is no longer an unattainable goal, but a marathon I'm training for. Sure, I'll fall down and come in last sometimes, but one day I hope to win gold!
Dina, like you, I also have stressed myself out trying too hard to get the perfect word or detail in a story. I have been working on trying to worry less about word choice and just try to get the story out. I try to tell myself that I can change the words or details when I revise. Congratulations on finishing your first novella that is a great accomplishment. I am still working on one.
ReplyDeleteSOMEONE IMPORTANT whose name currently escapes me once said that the actual writing doesn't begin until the re-write does. So I think you are on the right track. Finishing is critical. Fixing comes later.
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ReplyDeleteI agree that thinking plays a critical part, in the sense that attitude directs our activities, but what we all strive for is getting so lost in the awe and wonder of life and story-telling that as writers we come along for the ride, tagging alongside our characters and eavesdropping on them.
Barbara
I'll echo what Ray said, getting it on paper and finished is crucial. You can always go back and edit.
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